I have been thinking a lot about forgiveness. It seems in our society (or at least in the small southern town I live in) forgiveness isn't in. It is no secret (at this point anyway) that my husband left in January and we are on the rocky road of something - not sure what to call it actually.
On both sides of the issue stand my friends - who are by all accounts more my friend then his.
- The "protective don't be a victim" side asks when I am going to give an ultimatum? When am I just going to move on?
- The "life is messy" friends ask do I have it in my heart to forgive him and keep waiting.
I have to tell you that I side with the forgiveness side. I am no saint (stop snickering) and know that I have not been perfect in all of my relationships. In fact, I am still learning. I believe we all are still learning. I also believe that life is really messy and people get messed up in it. Having a place in our life for forgiving allows us to also forgive ourselves.
I was sharing with a friend last night that when I was dealing with my mom (another topic all together) I felt better when I placed boundaries on the relationship and I felt terrible when I slammed the door and said fuck off. A lesson that I learned at the end of our relationship sadly.
So, for now I am still on the rocky road - and open to forgiveness in all of its forms.
