Have you ever had the feeling that you aren't really living your life how you want to? It seems to me that I would like to make time for simple things, little rituals to mark time, moments that make the everyday seem special. Unfortunately, I am lost in the too busy and not noticing mode. The effort that it takes to make time to mark the little things in life with a toast, a lit candle, or a moment of reflection seem too hard. In the end does all of this rushing around doing really add up to something? At some point I think I have to realize that I am never going to be a Martin Luther King Jr. or Susan B. Anthony - that my life is made up of smaller stuff. It seems that the rushing around to get things done isn't amounting to a whole lot - that is what I am trying to say.
In fact - I don't think I am very happy at all.
I rush around to make things happen. I rush around to make a little more money that just gets sucked up into some other void and I never see the fruits of that rushing around. I rush around to get things clean only to have them get messy again in a second. I rush around to get dinner on the table only to have it eaten in less then a minute.
And, really, this isn't making my life happier or easier.
In fact, I try to make time for friends and family or for myself and I feel myself rushing through that too. There is no joy there.
So, the question becomes how do I get off that track - how to I relish life, enjoy the moments, and feel settled?
