I am slowly finding my focus - thanks for all the great suggestions. I do think it involves staying active and I also think you have to remember what you are doing in the first place. I tell people in business to focus on what their goals are all the time, but I suppose I forgot what I was doing. I needed to remember that I am gaining clarity (even when it seems I am stuck in the mud), regaining my balance (even when rugs are pulled out from under me), and designing my response system (much different then my reaction system). These are big things.
I have been reading Love and Death by Forrest Church and his motto:
Want what you have. Do what you can. Be who you are.
seems just about perfect.
I am a big believer in wanting what I have. I am not much of a craver - little things, but if I let the craving pass it just dissipated. I am most often grateful for the smallest of things in life - I suppose this came easily after my brothers death over 20 years ago. You realize that life really is short and liking what you have is so much easier then wanting what you can't possibly get. It is also probably a reflection of growing up lower middle class in a world of money - I just KNEW I wasn't going to get more so why feel as if I didn't have enough... just like what you did have. It just made life easier.
More later on doing and being!
Until then I hope you are relishing in your Good Friday - granted it leads to the ultimate death scene, but there is great salvation in that - I like to think of it as a metaphor for each day - the sun dies and is reborn each morning allowing us one more day on this beautiful temporary planet.
